Sometimes being a mom is hard.

I have days when my kids let me know I am the best mom ever.

• Days when I let them eat Strawberry cake for breakfast.

• Days when I let them go to bed without finishing their chores.

• Days when I let them stay up past bedtime so they can watch a movie.

• Days when I let them eat dinner in their rooms.

But some days I wonder what it is I'm doing wrong.

I wonder what I could have done differently.

Yesterday was one of those days.

Kayla was playing and came in and said she didn't feel well.  I checked her temp and it was already 101. I called her doc and waited on them to call me back. They called me about 40 minutes later and asked me what her temp was...it was 103. I had to bring her in.

I was terrified again and fighting tears because the last time she had a fever, she had a seizure. DIDN'T WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN.

Took her to the doc and they tried to get her temp down. It only got up to 104 this time. The verdict:

STREP THROAT...AGAIN.

Last time she had it, once it was over I got rid of the toothbrush and her lipgloss. Everything she used around and in her mouth went in the trash. For her to get it again, just makes me wonder...WHAT AM I DOING WRONG!??!!

I don't know I guess it was just a bad mommy day.

She slept a while once we got back home, woke up to drink some tea and went back to sleep.  She woke up again and asked for jello. I made it but she stayed asleep so it will be waiting on her when she wants it.

I hope she feels better soon.

Ok, mommy moment over now.

Toodles

Comments

[Nancywin]

Being a mom is the hardest job in the world - and we CANT be in control of everything, no matter how much we want or think we need to be. When my son was little (he's 21 now) he got scarletina and I never even knew he had a sore throat! I felt like a terrible mother, but the truth is, you can just never know everything. The important thing is that you did all the right things once you knew you needed to do something - and, you're little one is now much better.

[kristijane]

Sometimes these things just come on fast and there's no way to really know until it hits, so don't be too hard on yourself. She had her first bout with strep not that long ago, so maybe it's still going around and she got reinfected. My son's pediatrician told us that actually happens more than you'd think.

[Alison]

Hope she gets better real quick. Don't be too hard on yourself, kids catch things all the time. We can't wrap them up in bubblewrap, it wouldn't be fair. You are taking great care of her now and that's what counts. Just think of her illness as a chance to bond with her, soothe her and give her nice memories of her mommy looking after her.

[tiennie]

Kayla getting sick has nothing to do with you being a good mommy. You are fabulous and it was just unfortunate that she got sick again. Hope she (and you!) are feeling better soon!

[trena]

No one said motherhood came with a manual...I follow your blog all the time, don't worry your a good mom.

[trena]

No one said motherhood came with a manual...I follow your blog all the time, don't worry your a good mom.

[trena]

No one said motherhood came with a manual...I follow your blog all the time, don't worry your a good mom.

[trena]

No one said motherhood came with a manual...I follow your blog all the time, don't worry your a good mom.

[Erica B.]

Those things happen... kids get sick. Being a parent is a constant learning process. You have to play it by ear.

[Ronalyn]

Girl you are one of the Bestest MOms I know!! Hang in there!!! You are doing a great job!

[KayB]

I think everybody agrees here, it has nothinng, but nothing to do with you being a 'bad mom'. Kids pick up things and some are more prone than others. I think you're a great mother, otherwise you wouldn't worry. I hope she's getting better soon.

[Stacey_CrimsonPurl]

I am with Tiennie on this one. They are not related!

A good mom is a concerned and praying mom!!

So glad her fever broke and she will be just fine!

Feel better Kayla!!

[Amy]

hope she's feeling better soon.

[Dana]

I can so relate! I was supposed to take my daughter to an ENT this summer to see about getting her tonsils out. Since procrastination is my middle name I hadn't done it yet. Then, and of course this had to happen while she was at my parent's house, she got strep - AGAIN. Her fourth strep test since spring when all the others were negative. Argh.
YOU are not a bad mom. This stuff happens to everybody!

[Cassandra]

You are a good mom that is just having a bad day. You can't fight all the viruses and bacteria out there waiting to get to your children. You are a good mom. PERIOD!

I will say a prayer for Kayla and you too!

[Lisette]

As mothers there's only so many things that we have control over...strep is one of those that are out of our control. My kids have gotten strep quite a number of times and on top they do not get the classic symptoms, to the point that I take them in and I insist they be tested (because I just KNOW they got it) and I always impress the doctors when I'm right (every single time). Hope she's feeling better!

[gold]

You are a good Mom!Young kids get sick all the time.Thing is you knew to call the doctor and get some help.

[Jude]

Aw, don't beat yourself up!! Strep is everywhere and if she is prone to it, she can jsut pick it up easier. You ARE a GREAT Mom!!!

[Pam]

You are a not a bad mom! As mothers we want to protect our babies from everything but even a superwoman such as yourself is no match for the germs and viruses out there. Take advantage of this time to bond with Kayla while you're nursing her back to health.

[Robin]

Sorry to hear she is sick again, but you can't blame yourself!! Kids get sick and you did everything you could to try to prevent it. What else could you have done? Things are going to happen that you can't protect her from, which I guess is maybe the bigger issue.

[Kasey]

I agree with everyone else. Don't get down on yourself. You seem like a great mom (and person) to me.
My kids used to get strep all the time, I think it's the warm, damp environment we live in. We finally had to have my daughter's tonsils and adnoids removed and she's SO much healthier. I think she must have been a carrier, because my son has only had a couple of bouts with it since her surgery and that was 4 years ago.

[rhonda]

you are a very good mommy...you were there to take her to the doctor & now you are taking care of her to get better. strep just happens...nothing you did or didn't do. I hope she feels better real soon!

[jillian]

I'm not a mom, but I don't think there's anything you could have done. When I was little, up to junior high or so, I got repeated strep infections. I was otherwise perfectly healthy and lived in a normal sanitary home. I was just one of those kids that whatever was going around would settle in my throat, and often it turned out to be strep. It can be highly contagious.

You're a great mom!

[Muriel]

You are doing just fine!
I hope I can be that good with McKenna.

[lilia]

stuff like that is scary. But if being a mom is only hard sometimes, you are doing great. For me it's more like, being a mom is easy sometimes. Your little one will be fine and you can take a deep breath now.

[sheree]

Ahhh...don't beat yourself up over the strep thing. Some kids just get it more easily than others. :( You are a great mom! Hopefully K will be feeling better very soon!

[The NON-Superwoman]

Bad mommy days can really eat at us! Think of all the good you did do. You took her temp. You called the doc. You made her jello. And you are there. And that is more than enough!

[karenj]

You are a great mom...I often wonder how you do everything you do! I used to get strep often as a child. And I'm OK....:)
Hope she is feeling better!

[Izzy]

Your baby could have caught that virus from anywhere. My son got it all the time when he was in school. You'd have to put her in a bubble now a days to prevent that from happening. Don't beat yourself up. You took care of it as soon as you were aware of something going on and prevented something more serious from happening. Amen on those seizures.

[Amber]

I used to get strep all the time as a kid. Something about me being a carrier so I just had to have minimal exposure and it flared up. Good news is once I was 13 or so I didn't get sick hardly EVER. Chin up, you are doing great. I hope she gets better soon!

[carmell]

i used to get strep all the time when i was a kid. in the 5th grade i got scarlet fever as a result. then i didn't get again till i was in college. some kids are just get it a lot more than others. my sisters never got it but i had all the time. still got my tonsils though! its not your fault. you're still a good mommy.

[Nicole]

When kids get sick it's not because you've done something wrong. You knoooooow thaaaat.

I've tried to train my kids to wash their hands frequently. Definitely after toilet uses and always before they eat. They know to do the right thing but get lazy with this kinda stuff. Also, no drinking after anyone, not even a sibling.

Hope she gets better soon. This was my most frequent ailment as a child so I know she's uncomfortable.

[Dee]

You are totally the opposite of a bad mom! Things like this happen despite our best efforts. I hope she feels better really soon.

[Lisa]

OMG-surely it has nothing to do with anything you're doing!!! I know how you feel but, hey kids get sick. What makes you a great mom (among many things) is that you're on top of your kids' symptoms and you took care of the situation.

Don't get yourself down about the illness. Just feel great that you handled it girl.

On another note, wouldn't you know that the fabulous cocoanut oil you told me about got packed and now I'm in search of more-lol.

Take care, chat soon.

[Trina]

awww lemme give you a virtual hug cause I definitely know how you feel and let me send a hug for Ms K a hug cause I know what having strep feels like as well. You guys will be in my prayers and don't be so hard on yourself. Miss chatting with ya!

[Jenifer]

You are a great mom!

I used to get strep throat all the time when I was little. I remember one time I kept telling my mother that I didn't feel well but she made me go shopping with and my sisters anyway. And then she saw this lady she knew and they started talking and I got a beating for interrupting them. Only after the beating did she realize I had a fever.

[Jenifer]

I just called my mom to see if she remembered that and of course she doesn't. So see Adrienne when you get older you will forget about it anyway!

[Dana]

Being a mom is the hardest job in the entire world, you didn't get the memo? LOL
Also, things happen that are beyond are our control. Some children are just prone to strep....my oldest has gotten strep so many times that they want to remove his tonsils...

You are a wonderful mom, and you aren't doing anything wrong....crap happens....

Dana

[Lisa]

girl, you are not doing anything wrong! if you are, then we both are because i have had strep in this house 3 times, count em 1-2-3, since june! i don't know how or why we keep getting it here! some kids just get it more than others i guess.
don't be so hard on yourself we all know you love yo babies!

[Kellistarr]

I feel your pain. But, it's out of your control. You did what you needed to do and all that you could do. There are people in the world who don't even want to be bothered with taking their children to the doctor, emergency and DON'T. You're not one of those people. When my daughter was 2 she took a nap, awakened disoriented, with a fever and suffered a seizure. She was hospitalized for 7 days and the doctors could not tell what was wrong with her. A total mystery. Needless to say, everytime she so much as got a sniffle, I was terrified. That was her first and last seizure. She is 24 and thriving today. Your darling will be alright. At least you know what is wrong and you'll do all that you can do. Feel better!

[cheryl]

Oh man, I had no idea she had strep (although I hadn't seen her around yesterday or today, so I guess I should have wondered where she was). I hope she's feeling better tonight and that she is all better soon. Stuff like strep you really can't hardly control...says nothing about your being a bad mommy. I think you're great Mom!

Jaelyn and Delaney had such fun at the school today (but it was HOT!) You must let her spend the night sometime soon!

[Lu]

you are not doing anything wrong...nothing. you are doing everything right and that is all that matters. hold your head up.

[cathy]

You are not a bad mom. You are a good mom with a sick child. Even good moms have kids who get sick. Even good moms who are pediatric nurses have kids who get sick--with strep--a lot. One of my 4 was a carrier, too, and had it so often she got to where she could diagnos it herself! Now, as an adult she seems "over it". Just hang in there, Adrienne.

[Tany]

I hope she's feeling much better now... And what happened is not your fault, Adrienne.

[Tiffany]

I think we all have those moments as mothers. I am so glad that Kayla is feeling much better, now. Just remember that u r a great mother and just so u know, apparently strep is going around. Tabry was running a temp last week when I took her to the doc, they tested her for strep again. No strep, just a fever virus, but she had the same thing two weeks before. It happens!!!

[Christina]

Feel better K! Even when our kids are sick it is us moms that feel the worst : ( It's just a mechanism that is in us to want to protect our babies always. You are a beautiful mama, that's why God chose you, no mistakes : )

[Sylvie]

Feel better Kayla and Mommy. It's the hardest job in the world

[Keelah]

SHUT UP!! :) That is all!

Hope Kayla feels better soon.

Okay now THAT is all!

[Cee]

Adrienne:

Is your daddy's twin feeling better? ;)

[Heather]

Awww - I wish I had been around to leave this comment earlier, but DO NOT feel like a bad mommy for this! Some kids are just like this - I was when I was a kid (and still am, to this day) - I would NEVER get sick - maybe once or twice a year, and then, look out - cause it was gonna be a doozie! I'd have the 104-105 temps, then, as I became a bigger kid, I got mono, etc. Just this past school year, I didn't get one cold (remember, I work with 6 year olds all day - that's an amazing feat!), but I DID get the Shingles from being stressed out. So, don't get bummed - you still ROCK as a mommy, you just got one of those kids!

[Nikki]

Don't doubt yourself. You are an awesome mother. Kayla's a child and she's active in the open world, making her subjective to germs & illnesses. Make sure you keep her immune system strong by giving her vitamins and keep doing what you've been doing. Don't beat yourself up because you AND Kayla are just fine.

[Jeanine]

Hello there you wonderfully fabulous Mommy!
I hope that Kayla is on the road to recovery. Sending hugs your way.

[designdreamer]

Okay, first of all, DON'T YOU DARE BLAME YOURSELF FOR THIS!!!
My oldest (who is 20 now) used to get strep all the time. I happened to mention to the Dr. that she often snored when she slept. He told me to make a recording of her sleeping. He told us it was the worse case of child sleep apnea he'd ever heard. Told us she needed to have her tonsils out. We did, and she NEVER has had a reoccurence of strep. She was around 8 yo at the time. I know that removing tonsils is/has been controversal, and I'm the first in line to find alternatives to any kind of surgery, but I'm pretty sure we made the right decision on this one.

[designdreamer]

P.S. I think you rock as a mommy, AND you're an amazing sewist, AND you're relatively new to the art!!!!

[Cennetta]

I hope your baby is all better now. from what I read here you are doing all the right things and being the best mom to your children. Life is unpredictable and sickness will come, but making the choice to treat the illness is the best you can do.

God bless,
C

[Janelle Hunter]

I agree with everyone else on here (even though I'm over a month late). You are DOIN' it! You and your hubby are raising your babies for Christ, so you are on the right track!!!!