I sit here this morning with tears in my eyes. Just thinking about how good and faithful God is.
What I realized about my trials this past week, especially after talking to Ladylee (let me tell you just like I told her...EVERYTIME I talk to her I'm blessed. EVERYTIME. She has helped me so much spiritually it's crazy. God placed her in my life and me in hers and of this I am CERTAIN. She is nothing but a blessing) is that every trial is an opportunity to GROW. We just have to realize it.
Back around October/November (def before the holidays) I was having some issues. BIG issues lol.
The biggest thing I was dealing with and didn't realize it until God had to MAKE me sit down and realize it was idolatry.
I love dictionary.com definition : .
Deuteronomy 27:15 - Cursed [be] the man that maketh [any] graven or molten image, an abomination unto the LORD, the work of the hands of the craftsman, and putteth [it] in [a] secret [place]. And all the people shall answer and say, Amen.
I could go on and on and on but you get the point.
I've said it before and I'll say it again, I believe EVERY word in the Bible. Not just those feel good scriptures. I believe the ones that step on my toes.
God is a jealous God, put someone before Him? Man, He ain't happy.
He got my attention. Big time.
What I had to realize about god's, it can be SO MANY THINGS OR PEOPLE.
ANYTHING that you give ALL your attention to when you should be giving that attention/time to God. That's how "I" define it.
If you give ALL your time and attention to tv, your spouse, work, clothes, shoes, money...that COULD be your god.
Y'all know I love shoes, clothes, phones, gadgets, etc but you can take all that away and I'm good. Those things I've NEVER put before God.
What I had in God's place was NOT good. ANYTHING in His place isn't good but this? Yeah.Nerp.
He literally had to show me that HE was in charge.
Sometimes we go through things because WE don't have God in the correct place. Please know when I say WE I mean "I". I was going through this same trial over, and over AND OVER again because I didn't have God in the right place. I THOUGHT I did, but I was oh so wrong, not to mention this was a weak area for me.
It didn't occur to me that I was trusting in other things/people and NOT Him until around mid-december. It was then that I decided that I would trust in HIM totally and even when my trials came up and I would cry, I STILL trusted Him.
He has proven himself to me.
I'm writing this entry more for myself. I want to be able to look back at this entry and remember that I am going to trust God no matter what. I want to always keep HIM in His place and not put anything where He should be.
If I've encouraged you in anyway, that is icing on the cake :)
I'm not perfect, just striving to be the woman God wants me to be. Keeping my life lined up with the WORD and Trusting Him every step of the way.