Soul Food, My Walk With God

 

 

Today has been a rough day.  Overwhelmed seems to be an understatement.

Anytime I feel overwhelmed, the scripture comes to mind:

From the end of the earth will I cry unto you, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:2

Today has been a cry unto Him kinda day. Literally.

I know that God has a plan for me. I trust Him to make things alright, but sometimes trusting isn't easy.

I try to keep my eyes on God at all times, and not the situation, but sometimes that isn't easy.

I keep finding myself in this certain situation, and I keep praying and asking God WHAT am I supposed to be learning from this? I KEEP coming back to this exact same thing. How am I supposed to handle this? What am I supposed to be doing or saying that I'm NOT doing and saying?

It's frustrating sometimes and I try my best to keep my eyes on Him and not question what is going on or why.

There are times when I'm just downright upset about the whole thing and I DO ask Him WHY. WHY. WHY. I ask Him to show me what I'm doing wrong or show me what I'm supposed to be doing that I'm NOT doing, and I'm not getting ANY answer.

I know that a delayed answer doesn't mean He isn't listening. I KNOW He hears me and I KNOW He answers my prayers so why isn't He answering this one? I just want an answer. WHY.

Maybe I shouldn't be questioning Him or why He is doing a certain thing?

But I want to know.

Sometimes you get TIRED of taking the same test. I'm ready to move past this but seems like God isn't ready to move me yet?

I don't know. I want to know. I NEED to know WHY I keep going through this same cycle.

I know I've prayed and fasted about it, gotten other people to pray with me and I do believe that God will make it alright...or do I?

Maybe I need to check MY faith?

Maybe I need to check MY motives?

I think they are pure. I really believe they are. I'm not trying to do something because someone else is doing it.

But why do I REALLY want it? WHY am I seeking an answer.

Hmmm.

Now that the tears have dried up, I feel better. Still in the same place but I have peace now. NOTHING has changed. It's STILL the same but change is coming. I know it. The Word says:

The LORD will perfect that which concerneth me...Psalm 138:8

This thing CONCERNS me, so He WILL make it perfect. In His time. I just need to hold on, and keep my eyes on Him.

 I'm not perfect, just striving to be the woman God wants me to be. Keeping my life lined up with the WORD!

 

Comments

[Elaray]

First, let me say I LOVE your Soul Food posts. There is often something that speaks directly to me in those posts. This one is no different. I have been in the same situation many times. I wish I had an answer for you. But you already know the answer. You know you have to continue to trust God. My pastor once said God puts us through things just so we will come to Him for help. And while we are asking for help, we can remember and thank Him for all he's done. I pray that you will find the answers and peace you're looking for.

[Izzy]

"I'm not getting ANY answer." Perhaps out of your frustration about the situation, you are not seeing the answer right in front of you? Sometimes we also don't like His answer. He leaves it up to us to choose the right path. Aim for a happy heart and peace will follow.
Blessings to you.

[Chelle]

I was at that point a few months ago. But a good, good friend saw me go under the water and had the guts to say the right thing to me. Not the easy thing.

It's never easy, but it's right. I'm glad to know you have the right people on your side, Adrienne.

Keep doing the right thing...

[Alethia]

I haven't visited here in a while,and I hope this doesn't border on intrusion, but I was moved by your conversation. Many of us have been there many of times,are there, and will be there again.
Please accept these words of encouragement that comes to my mind: You already hit on my favorite, Psalms 138:8~ He will perfect ALL things concerning you.I live by this.
Also, in Daniel, you may have read it already, but God heard Daniel when he first prayed. It took him 21 days to bring the answer to pass because, there was a principality that had to be overcome before Daniel could get his answer.
So, know that God heard the first time, no matter how long it takes, keep praising God~ for we know according to His word, Praise Steals(defeats) the enemy.
Many times we want what we want for various reasons, whether impatient, the situation doesn't feel good, or look good. But, God's word says, "Let patience have her perfect work, so that you may be perfect and entire wanting nothing."
Let me say to you, "KEEP ON PRAISING GOD!!" Your redemption draweth near. Be at peace and know that He is at work even in silence.
Above all, know that your situation is already over, it's complete, it's finished. Praise Him like it's so....

In love,
Alethia

SN: Please get the book Neccessity of an Enemy by Ron Carpenter.
Great book
The enemy can be situations, people, job,etc.
I'm reading this now...I'm sure you will be just as blessed by it. Peace.

[TJ]

I have been dealing with some things and praying and fasting and it has seemed like things were getting worse than they were getting better, but there have been some moments when I have just accepted the situation and trusted God's best for it and I just had amazing peace. It wasn't over, but I had peace and there was no way I should have had it. I'll be glad when it's over, but God is still good.

[CarlaF-in Atlanta]

Hang in there. Do NOT give up. You've got everything you need to make it through.

[Single Ma]

*hugs*

[Nicole]

I used to keep a journal in my early 20s detailing all the things that's were consuming my life and why. 10, 15, 20 years later I still read that journal sometimes and laugh because I am looking at those issues through new, more mature eyes and they should not have concerned me that much at all back then. Sad part is, is that I'm still waiting to be able to see certain issues ( or waiting on unanswered prayer) through those same more seasoned, spiritually mature eyes. ::shrugs:: I just don't know what to think about the whole process anymore. For me it's been quite depressing.

[Simone P.]

I so needed to read this today. I am in the same boat! We must keep the faith.

[Tameika]

Hold on. Do not give up. He is right beside you and will give you the answer you require in his time. Remember the words of Paul in 2 Corinthians 1: "We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers and sisters,about the troubles we experienced in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us again. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us,". ~2 Corinthians 1:8-10 My prayer for you is strength and encouragement.