I was thinking the other day about prayer. My prayer life has totally changed.
I was reading in the bible where it says something along the lines of ask what you will in my name and I will give it. Hmmmm. I PROMISE the first thought that went through my mind was, "what do I want?" lol.
I mean all I have to do is ask for it right? LOL. All I wanted was spiritual things. A closer walk with God, a better understanding of His word, to live the life, not just talk the talk.
When Tony and I gave our lives back to God we let a LOT of people go. People that just weren't good for us. We don't do the things we did when we were hanging with them so we just put a LOT of distance between us.
Well, we knew one of them was going to have surgery and we would call before hand to see about the time and stuff, well there were complications. Major ones. They are doing ok, but have a long road to recovery.
It made me realize that we (I) have to STAY prayed up. Not just pray when things are bad. IMO its like going to the bank to get some money out because you have an emergency and there is NONE there. I want a relationship. I want to know God and I want Him to know me. Not look at me like who is this when I start talking to Him about something.
I'm not perfect, just a woman striving to live my life the Bible way and be pleasing to God.