Well, I got all my test results back from my doctor and the cancer is still there. We thought that after the first surgery I had, everything would be gone. Umm, not so much.
I have very good doctors. I mean REALLY GOOD DOCTORS. As in, here is my cell phone and home number if you have any questions call me good. That is almost unheard of.
My doctor gave me a few options as far as treatment goes, and after much prayer and talking with my husband and my mom and dad, I opted to go with External Radiation.
It was suggested because the cells have not spread beyond my cervix, and it's early stage cervical cancer so it's used as an alternative to surgery.
External radiation is given by machine, kinda like an x-ray machine. It DOES NOT HURT. At all.
Initially, they suggested that I go to have treatment three times a week for three weeks, then twice a week for four weeks. When I got there yesterday, since the cancer DOES NOT SEEM TO BE SPREADING, they want me to go everyday for THREE WEEKS!!
The reasons I opted for this treatment:
- I can still do the things I normally do.
- It is just as effective as having surgery.
- I am honestly just scared to have surgery. (long story lol)
So there you have it. I had my first treatment yesterday and I was fine. I was a little tired and had no desire to eat anything, but that was it, but I think that was mainly due to my nerves.
I had a mild panic attack Saturday night/ Sunday morning, but after I talked to my good friend, she helped me understand that it was normal to be scared. MORTIFIED was more like it lol.
I am trying to keep a positive outlook on everything, because it could ALWAYS be so much worse.
I can't begin to tell you guys how thankful I am for you all, and my family.
Ok, so that is it lol. I'll have a super long update Wednesday, there will be another interview (audio this time) ,I've been scrapping, making cards with my "scraps" organizing and purging like crazy (that was Saturday and Sunday) lol, I honestly thought that once I started the treatments, I was not going to make it, so I had to have everything in order. I had already willed away my fabric. LOL. SERIOUSLY. When I say I had panic attacks, I REALLY mean that. But that is just being real lol. I was SCARED. I'm still scared, but I know I'll be okay...does that make sense? LOL
Thanks again for EVERYTHING!